MY MOMENT IN TIME

Hi Family and Friends....

Just wanted you to know that I am back to blogging again.  Really do not have much to say but a gal needs to "vent" once in awhile.

I am enjoying the beautiful weather even though I am a prisoner in my home.  Just joking.  I am in my home because my body quit working but my spirit is still gung ho.  I would love to be able to come and go and live a normal life, but it is "test" time for me.

If the legs don't work any more that makes you confined.  But each day I manage to look out the window and see the clouds, the birds, the tree limbs swaying in the breeze, the crop of wheat growing and then yesterday seeing it harvested, shipped off, straw baled and stacked.  Today was disking the ground and partially planting alfalfa.  Busy time for the men in my family.

Life could be better, but there is reasons for our trials and thus I am determined to keep on looking for something every day to be thankful for.  I am most thankful for my cat Misty.  Never had a cat in the house before but she is not a farm cat.  My son Brad has her staying her.  We had her declawed so she does not hurt Brad's beautiful little girl Rachel.  She loves the cat and vice-versa.

I have a laptop computer which is company too.  I communicate via facebook with family and friends, send emails, look at beautiful quilt fabric (although I had to give all my previously bought fabric away), play games, and my favorite is genealogy research.

I have a great genealogy room but no longer can sit in the chair.  I am going to get a motorized chair ...hoping I will be able to get my bod out of it and in it.  Time will tell. 

You get a picture of my world: bed, bathroom, lift chair.....back to bed, bathroom, etc.  Family is bringing in meals just about every day.  I can no longer clean the home so I have my granddaughter Heidi making things look nice. 

Am I happy in my world?  Let us just say that attitude will make you or break you.  I choose to look at what is good, what I do have and thank God for each new day.  Yes, I miss church, shopping, the ease of getting up and down chairs, stairs, etc.  I miss my rose garden, my veggie garden, and most of all of being independent.

But I do have a knowledge of why I am here, where I HOPE to go and although some days are very hard, I will find things to smile about and laugh about.  I know that God is near.  I know that I am loved despite all the horrid mistakes I have made in my life.  I want to be normal, but it isn't to be.  I don't ask "why me?"  I just keep praying and taking it one day at a time.

Please tell me how you get through the trials of your life.  May God bless all of you in your daily ways that you will be able to do all things and  enjoy the blessings of a full life. 

DID I DIE AND GO TO HEAVEN?

Dear Family and Friends,

I truly do not know what to say.  Me, the chatterbox, has been dormant for over a year.  I cannot believe all the things that happened in that year.  Sure wish I had a camera.  I have hinted to the "boss" and he just doesn't get it...literally.  I gave up.  So you will just have to read and weep, or read and laugh, or read and cry. No pictures~~~

I know this post can be found on the internet without any trouble so I better watch what I put down.  How about a list????  If I wrote out the "story" on each item you would see why I entitled this writing "Did I die and go to Heaven?"

LIST OF 2012-2013:

Oh gosh...I can't.  Got lots of happenings listed and I realized that everyone has their good days and their bad days. Besides that you would feel sorry for me and cry, etc.

Guess what?  I came to earth to grow, to learn, to get "refined" and if this is how it can be done I will gladly go through it.  Bring it on as I always say. 

My absence from this blog can only be explained in this way.  My days were taken up with being refined and groomed for what is to come. There are many days, weeks, months ahead that are going to be filled with "schooling".

Be grateful for your time here on earth.  Enjoy the things you can do and do not waste time thinking of what you cannot do.  If you dwell on the negative, you forget the positive.  For the last 3 years I have been buying fabric to make quilts, table runners, baby blankets, pillowcases, little girl's dresses, etc.  I bought every piece of fabric over the internet.  Beautiful and gorgeous. I found out that I cannot stand up to cut out the fabric nor can I sit at a sewing machine.

Oh what to do with the thousands of dollars of fabric.  Solution: I had a Fabric Giveaway.  Family came over, looked, smiled and went home with huge stashes of fabric.  Did I sit and cry afterwards?
No....I looked at the positive: my daughters and their daughters will be sewing, learning and sharing with others the things they will be able to make and knowing that brings such great happiness to my heart.

Yes...I did die and go to heaven on that day.  A peaceful, happy, contended feeling.  One I have needed to experience for a long, long time.  It truly was a heavenly feeling.